Last week, I had an epiphany. Most of my recent struggles with mental health, most of the constant stress and anxiety that I feel, most of this stuff is directly correlated to the degree to which I live a public online life.
Now, I love writing for the web. I love making these videos. It's fun and I feel like I'm helping people. That said, there are downsides. There's the pressure to produce new material. There's the constant judgment (both positive and negative) in the form of likes, shares, comments, and more. There's the vast web of relationships to manage with other creators and with my audience. It all takes a toll.
"What if," I thought, "what if I were to simply give it all up? What if I walked away and gave up the whole content creation game?"
I haven't decided what I'm going to do. And this video doesn't contain any answers. (Also, this video is nothing more than personal introspection, so don't expect any takeaways for your own life. Sorry.)